Its being 4 months since me and my ex broke up and I am starting to go out again. I went out this past weekend and came home with a friend of mine and things got a little weird but I like him a lot. Well he hasnt call and havent heard from him. Why do guys do that. I am not the type of a one night stand deal. I dont like being played with.  I dont know what to do because I really want to beat the crap out of him, but then I think that I should act like I dont care and see what happens. I hate this, thats why I never go out because I meet guys that dont deserve a simple Hi.

I hate going to places and all I can think is about him. I used to be so happy and I could go anywhere and enjoy myself. I hate my life like this because I miss him so much. I hate not having him in my life. Why did thinks get so wrong. I wish that I could understand when my life got so screwed up. I want everything to go back the way it was. I dont want to be with anybody else. Why do we fall in love with the wrong people at the wrong time. Why can we fall in love and that person feel the same way. I hate this situation because I feel like I am dying inside. I losing all the hope that I have. I dont want him to know that I feel this way but I misss him why cant he feel the same way about me. I love him.

Well it was my bday and well he called I got so excited and even better like an hour later he brought me a gift. I still can beleive it. I love him so much. I still can believe this is happening. I wish he would change his mind. I miss him a lot. I miss sleeping in his arm, and cuddling with him. He was to sweet with me. I want school to start fast enough so I can have my mind occupied in something. I want to see him all the time and I cant. I hope he would come back to me.

Two days till my bday and still miss erich, why things didnt work out I still dont know. I hate this situation because I want him by my side and I cant. School starts in a month I can wait because that way at least I will be busy. Its being a month and I can get over him yet. Its going to be hard finding someone like him. He was my prince I saw the rest of my life with him. I still have hope but I am going to start letting him continue on with his life because what else can I do. I misssss him. LOL.

I am facing another bad experience with men. Everything was going wonderful with my boyfriend but he decided to ended. I am really sad and everything reminds me of him. I want to do so many things to let him know how much he hurt me but I still have some hope that he will reconsider his decision. I dont think I can handle anymore crap from guys. Why can they fall in love with only one person and stick to that. I love him so much and I want to get him back but I dont know how. I wish someone could tell me what to do in this moment because I am so afraid of everthing that I dont know what I could do. I just know that no one is ever going to replace him because our relationship was perfect just diferent caracters but I liked that about him. I dont know what to do can anyone help me.

Claudia.

I still can believe something llike this can happen in such a manner. I still dont believe that so many people died and others were injured. We write about are love problems and love dreams and so many things and we never think about other people's problem and that they are something worst than our problems. The killer is usually a kid that was feeling left out or that is getting missed treated by other kids. I think we just need to teach children to stop picking on people. Always is the person that never felt like he belong any where. We need to care more about people's feeling than we do now. We never stop for a second to look around and greet anyone even if we dont know them, make friends. I dont know we need to make new people from other countries like they are here, they belong in a group. I dont really care what it takes we just need to stop having these unnecessary killings.

Ohh my god I still can believe he took me to Miami, Florida for like a week. We stayed at the Marriot I dont know if that is big but the hotel was wonderful. I loved being there we went so many places and others well they didnt let me in because of my age but ohh well. Well valentine was yesterday and well I got a teddy bear from build a bear that I really wanted and well my bf's dad made us dinner for me, my bf and his mom. We also went to the movies b/c restaurants are to crowed this day. Well this is all good. I love my bf he is so nice and well we ended up in his house watching another movie and well having a little time to ourselves school have made us a little apart. Well comment ok.

Well that last relation ended about 5 months ago. And 2 months after it was my birthday and I met this boy that I am now dating. He is the most wonderful guy I ever being with. He is so sweet. He is cuban, but he just moved from Germany where he lived for 7 years. We are going to miami for 2 weeks next month. He is so much fun and he is in florida now and I miss him to death I can wait until he gets back at the end of the week. Well I am starting school on the spring going for Business Administration let see how that goes. Well ttyl people and write me.

 

Claudia

Well I didnt go with his dad I though it was to soon for that. I didnt want to see him anyways. He call me on sunday night and ask me what I was doing and that he wanted to see me. And he ask me why I havent called him in like 3 days. Well we stayed together that night I know it might seem stupid but I really like him. I dont know he is weird I never being with a guy like him before. I can never tell what he is thinking. He mentioned something about friends with benefit and the image that poped into my mind was him calling me whenever he needed my favors and I wasnt up for that. I got my period this week so I could do him any favors and I was a little worried about what he was going to do so I didnt called him for like 2 days. He call me and ask me what was wrong and that he was going to come and pick me up. I told him I was on my period and he told me he wanted to see me it wasnt only for the sex that he calls. So I am a little concern what our relationship has become because to me he is my bf but I dont know what I to him because it is not a friendship with benefits. Friends with benefit dont stayed at his house 3 days in a row and helps his mom around the house, and goes everywhere with his parents. So I dont know how long is this going to last but I am going to find out. Comments.

Well my inlaw called me about 10 minutes ago and he wants me to go a visit him...He wants me to go and see his son and act like nothhing happened. He told me that he is really suffering my lost that he sits in front of the tv, eats, takes a shower and goes to sleep. Without even saying a word. I mean like he is thinking about stuff all the time. His dad told me he is giving me driving lessons this weekend and that he is going to help me fix all this. Who will know his son better than a parent. I am excited but scare at the same time I dont want him to treat me badly or anything. I am to emotional sometimes. But I am excited I being talking about him all day my friend over here tell me after I get over it I will have to take her into terapy. I am driving the poor girl nuts. Well I dont know but the worse war to lose is the one that is not done. I want to fight for his love whats the worst thing not having him as a friend I dont think that could have happen even if I dont fight for him. Being friends with someone you once loved never works unless is like someone you really didnt felt for. Well give comments and dont be harsh people lol.

Well I finally call him up today cause I didnt know what else to do, it was either that or going nuts not knowing why he had asked for some time. He told me I was great and all those things but that I was expecting to much of him and he cant give me that. Its kinda like he is saying that he doesnt believe in love and thats what I want. I really like him and I can believe it took him that long to tell me that. Its kinda like a relationship based in lies, which he said it wasnt because he never lied to me. He told me everything he gave me, and showed me was true and all I saw it was him caring and loving me so I dont want to think anymore. I am sad and I can stop craying because I am starting to lose faith in love and I dont want that. Sometims I think that I dont diserve to be happy because it seems like I am happy for a period of time and then everything brakes like a glass. I know I am 18 and it might seem like I am to dramatic but is this pain ever go away or is this how life is because I can go on living like this. Finding a great guy, falling for him and then everything brakes again. Comments please

Why do guys usually use that line " I need my space" I am confused and I need time to think about it. This bf of mine is like no other guy I dated before he is so confusing and so different I can never tell why he does the thing he do. I know sometimes we women can be a little to much on to a guy but I am not that kind of girl. I am the kind that calls once maybe twice a day no more than that. I wait until he calls me and comes and picks me up. I am not after his money and I am no gold digger. I am what you can call a really nice and good girl. What else can a guy ask for. I dont know if he loves me, or how much he cares about me but I am scare and I dont know what to do or what to think. I know life goes on, but I dont want to lose him he is a really nice guy. Everybody have issues but I dont want that because he is a little stressed out he takes out on me. People and mostly guys comment.

 

 

Yet another episode in my life, like I said last night when I wrote in my blog it was to soon to say what was going to happen before the night was over. He call me about 9:30 and ask me if I wanted to come over and well I said yes come and pick me up I knew that meant staying over at his house but I didnt really care. I try to give him all he asks truly. I really like him even though I know I am not in love with him or at least I dont think I am. The thing that is bothering he hasnt touch me since the weekend if you know what I mean. I dont know what to think anymore I hope he do it today because it has started to bother me, not because I am a sex maniac or something but because I dont want to start thinking he is getting it from someone else. You know how we women tend to think this kinds of things. I would hate to think he is cheating on me, which I hope not. Comments lots of comments I need.

My day started really weird couldnt sleep last night a lot of nightmares for some reason.... and I went to macdonals last night and I woke up feeling a little sick. Talk to my bf and well he was doing an oil change to his car and told me we were going to see each other later and its 5 pm and still havent show. I dont know what to think sometimes with him, he can be so loving and so caring and sometimes he can go on without showing any emotion at all. I know he must like me otherwise why would he still be with me, but wow he is a hand full. I am starting to think that I really like him and care a lot about him otherwise why would I get to upset about this things. Its too soon to the say the word love but sometimes I wonder if I love him and I have no idea how much. I fall in love to quickly and thats why I´ve suffer through out the years. Comments and suggestiongs are always welcome.

Hey its cool the new blogs4me.com page. Well my life nothings has change still with the same bf and still having the same problems. Sometimes I feel like he doesnt love me but then I start thinking why is he with me then, and its not cause of the sex because is not like he has it like everyday or something. I like him and all but sometimes I feel like I want to kick him in the head. He is just to stubborn for me, and our caracters are way to similar even though I am more fragil. I hope things change because I dont really want to brake up with him over stupid things. I really like this guy and we are good together. When we are together alone eveythings is heaven and when I stay over his house and I wake up in the morning things are wonderful and I feel like I am in heaven. I wish everybody will feel like I do.  I am happy most of the times but sometimes he doesnt realize the way he is being with me and how he is hurting my feelings somehow. Well comment me.

 

 

Its being a month and a half since me and my bf starting going out and everything was perfect. Now things are getting ridiculoes. He thinks I am going to cheat on him like I am some kinda of B***** in the corner. I dont know what to thinki but he keeps punishing me for something that I havent even done. Today he still hasnt come to see me and I lost faith that he will. I feel terrible because I dont like when he is mad at me for no reason at all. I hate it when he is mean to me when I havent done anything. I think are characters are interacting with one another and thats why we are having trouble. He is what you call a macho man and I dont have a problem with that but I dont like when he just yells at me for no reason at all. Well people tell me what to do.

Well my bf and I are still together omg a whole month. we went to the movies on saturday we saw poseidon( i really didnt like it, was expecting more action) and mission impossible( that one I did like, tom cruise needed to show some more skin but oh well). Last night my in laws had a dinner party, i was invited but for some reason I got dropped home and didnt come to pick me up until like 10:30 or so. What kinda of thing is that. He doesnt like me around his friends much. Come on I am Jennifer Lopez, or anything like that. I mean better than me no one, but come on jelousy is getting old old. Well things are back to normal. I am gradutating I cant even believe it. It seems like yesterday I was getting out of middle school. Well feedback ok. Bye. .

 

Its being almost a week since it happen and I am doing better, I just can believe he is gone and I could even say good bye or anything. I mean tell him how much I love him and stuff. He knew but I just feel like I need to tell him one more time, so he would remember. On the other hand I am happy because my bf is being nice so far. I though he was going to be a crazy bastard just like the others but he hasnt so far. He is really loving and caring. I hope we last a long time because he is great. Tommorrow is lacee's birhtday if you read this happy birthday hunny I'll call you ok. And if you have something plan I might come over and spend the afternoon with you or something. Well my life is getting back on track finally I am making up hours because of lots of absenses that I have, but its all good cant wait until graduation. YAY. Have fun people because we only have one life, and we neeed to learn to enjoy it. lol.